Not a perfect man, that ain't no surprise
Older I get, realize neither am I
I guess the fruit really doesn't fall far
I guess we supposed to be wherever we are
5 years passed where we didn't speak
7 page letter, that was all me
I was tired of being afraid
Still, I'm sorry I threw the past into your face
Life as a man, couldn't understand
You was hurt, raising your voice instead of a hand
Using your son to lie to your girlfriend
'cause you never learned how to be loved
A whirlwind is what it must've felt like
Waiting for the right hand
Waiting for some kind of break
But you was never dealt right
Pushing me away to maintain the poker face
Way to maintain with both Jokers laying on your plate
Custody battle, feeling like you betrayed
They always fuck the man over anyway
Tryna cope with a childhood gone wrong
So of course...who else you gonna take it out on?
God is merciful for us to have a chance again
I guess that it was just time
And yeah, I don't agree with all your choices but
Lord knows, I also don't agree with all of mine

[Verse2]

always thought of reconnecting at an earlier time
But whenever the thought approached, fear would bubble inside
Plus
I'd gotten so accustomed to the mindset
Finding false power in the anger I confide in
Slowly I began to erode
Guilt became a worm digging in my temporal lobe
And I started to picture type of hypothetical shit, like
"Would I keep up the grudge if they had told me you passed?"
They say you gotta learn to live with regret
But I knew I couldn't forgive myself if that's how it went
And all that time apart gave me perspective
When I could see you as a person instead of my father,
I could picture us bonding
As two men, fundamentally flawed
'cause we enter the world clean
And leave it with scars, and well...
Had to separate to come back
Left to figure out what it take for me to be a man and run that
My generation fought a battle that's uphill
Felt like Sisyphus when they call us a "Sissy"...shit
world would say to shed a tear was always on some sissy shit
Rather see us take a life and get a tattoo
Forcing us to be a man
Try to force us to evolve
Make the value of a boy conditional, we lose'em all
Reaching for your son in that condition then you bound to fall
Limit what a "man" can mean, it's no wonder we fall apart

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