Consider this the lost book of Ptolemny
Tryna keep the lamp lit for lost souls to follow me
Self Archaeology
Milk carton Spartan wearin silk cloth, and honestly
I'd probably feel more at ease if God put me on a leash
Ugh
Saturday. Contemplate the human fate
Race of Apes, floating on a giant marble lost in space
Guess that Will Robinson be everybody name
Live in danger or choose to endanger everything
Thank God I got to wake up in a bed today
Catching Z's on the Z line is what I hate
Could it be that I'm bee-lining for the grave
Could I be brought to the mecca just to fade away?
Yo
Say it isn't so
And I ain't dark enough to people to say that I flow
But I've been known to take the square hole of my life
With a round peg, tryna make it go
'Cause I'm just a human
[verse 2]
I'm literally tryna jump the gun
Get the number 5 spot on your top 5 list and die
so I could jump to 1
Says a lot about the value of an artist's life
I'm alright, but I'll be the greatest if I die tonight
Have an obsession with music that is truly stupid
If you suffer from success, we should do a transfusion
Give me just enough of your blood for my life to change
And in exchange, you'll have enough of mine to sleep inside the train.
Rappin half your life, the world is actin' like, you haven't done a thing
You'll wake up in the hospital afraid
Sell your chain
Start to have flashbacks of what I was doing yesterday:
The game of "How long can a bag of peanuts give me sustenance?"
And since you're now inside of me - pause in ALL CAPS
I'm getting scared 'cause I'm hearing flaws in all raps
All my real shit too fuzzy to call back
Make me feel we shouldn't have gone with all that
But fuck it, I'm feeling tears from exhaustion alone
The cause of which is one that I don't mention on the phone
'Cause if I did then you would simply call me crazy
And I'd believe you 'cause I make it easy
My mom is telling me just to let it go...
I've tried for such a long time
I'm feeling like this ain't a choice
This voice you hearing's not mine
It's from somewhere else
And by the time you're done listening to this, I probably put it back
on the shelf
HUMAN
credits
from Nu Blu,
released December 4, 2015
Produced by DEZO
Recorded by Calvin Fox
Written+Performed by James Shahan
Mixed + Mastered by Calvin Fox
Prolific Mexico City rapper SPEAK ponders the self-isolated age on a booming EP, recorded live in his kitchen during quarantine. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 24, 2020