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Cerulean

from Nu Blu by Shahan

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lyrics

I just wanna know what's wrong with me and after that, I'll leave
Subway brake, it soundin like a pterodactyl when it screech
When there's people laughin, I'm the loudest one, usually
But the other night was...you gotta believe it wasn't me
Can't believe you putting me back on the street
I'm not upset
if there's anyone that got yelled at or hurt, then I regret
I was in my own dimension in the kitchen, on the couch
I fell in a burning ring of fire in a glass house
It was like my thoughts were zooming
I could not control my mind
E-e-e-e-e-energy was swimming up my spine
I'm saying maybe this ain't happening. Tomorrow, I'll be good
But tomorrow is today and the decision has been made
I understand I gotta leave, I mean you ain't gotta explain
I'll get all my things together and get right back on the train
And I know that I don't know the man who offered it to me
But you know him and I trust you, so how deadly could it be
right?

[Chorus]
You might say that
I'm not broken
But it's so easy to forget
When I'm running through life
Feeling like you'll never find me
And I might know that
I'm not broken
But it's so easy to forget
So forgive me when I call on you to remind me

[Verse 2]

I just wanna look and act like you
Do the things you do
You know best
Argue with you but inside I know it's true
You just like to test me everyday and in every way
But I love you
You's a renegade, so I'm not afraid
If I bow to you, then maybe that would change a couple things
Maybe I'd be more than just another pink orangutan
Looking for a split
Grab a branch, I'm looking for a hit
I dap my mans and think 'cause I'm the only one that seem to trip
What a trip this is
Violent thoughts
What a fist this is
Ridicule will put you on MTV's "Ridiculousness"
Don't want to be down here anymore
Where my brain is at?
If I pray then maybe I wouldn't be such a maniac
Every relationship that I have, inevitably
is a reminder for me, that I'm not a good human being
I don't mean I'm not a good person
I mean I'm not good at being a person
'cause I'm not a person
Now watch it worsen

[Chorus]
You might say that
I'm not broken
But it's so easy to forget
When I'm running through life
Feeling like you'll never find me
And I might know that
I'm not broken
But it's so easy to forget
So forgive me when I call on you to remind me

[Verse 3]

I know you're with me, I can see the way you're guiding me
Got me looking out for numbers like the lottery
Throwing me signs out the blue like a deaf crip who can't speak
It could be anybody but alas, you chose me
Why am I here?
Did you call for me or did I volunteer?
Where's the halfway? I'm just tryna meet you there
Too often I feel like I need to be forgiven
The hardest thing A man can do is embracing what's in him
But still, I bow my head and say thanks
For every time an angel moved me out of harm's way
Every time I get to feed myself, quench my thirst
And every fuccboi thinking they outshine my verse
I carry the Thoth and anything required for prayer
a way to connect, to something more compelling than air
I'm not a creator so much as a translator
And I feel favored
Yeah
I feel favored

credits

from Nu Blu, released December 4, 2015
Produced by James Shahan
Recorded by Calvin Fox
Written+Performed by James Shahan
Mixed + Mastered by Calvin Fox

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